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at Stella with iced coffee and actual work materials out.

still don't feel like doing it. right now it's a case of "other things feel bigger"... the topics that my heart feels drawn to today are things to do with the police violence and big social justice issues everywhere and... talking about privatizing and whether it's important feels small.

but public values AREN'T small. they're caught up in the same maelstrom. what does it mean to be a community, a nation? when is it appropriate to look after monetary interests? is there a role here, when private companies and interests and military armoring get entangled with how our police forces are trained? how does public servant discretion get warped until extrajudicial execution is part of that discretion?

i just got back from a "third world country"... to my fruit fly filled apartment. we get drinkable water a little better, maybe, but given the reports on lead in the water in Baltimore... do we really? for how much longer?

the day after Brexit, i got in a conversation for a few minutes with a Scottish woman in my hostel. she was surprised, mostly just laughing over "voted against it, not quite sure what it means yet, but MAN I WISH I'D CASHED IN MY CURRENCY SOONER."

trump could happen.

we'll probably all be fine, but reading along in 1491... much like Collapse. fine for a collection of years doesn't mean fine forever. we could most assuredly drive ourselves to extinction very quickly.

i need to keep some attention in my part of the maelstrom. it's a calmer issue, but it matters. public values here and public values in transportation infrastructure... both are part of how we come to these vast, amorphous public choices about how to govern ourselves.

on the other end of the spectrum... comfort of hanging out with friends. laughing and being goofy and enjoying the company feels important right now too.

so. balance is hard. time to start working for it anyway.